Drinking Session

After resting for three nights from drinking, went for a drink with friends last night. and tonight the girls are also going out for a drinking session in Donggongon. coz tomorrow is a holiday, so i don't mind going out again as long as i have enough sleep...the guys are going bowling tonight, i'll join them next time...

What a good feeling!!

Today, started going to the gym again after a one week rest. then went to work around 8.30am... got a phone call from SMC to pick up my medical report, was nervous and excited at the same time, well thank God everything is normal, I'm considered healthy, hehe...

We had netball practice at 3pm but we arrived quite late because of the massive traffic jam in KK, everyone is out to buy things and prepare for the raya celebration, probably ada juga yang turun dari kampung, hehe...

Haven't played netball in such a long time, the last time i remember was in 1998, that's 10 years ago, wow... have to sharpen my skills...it's a good feeling to sweat and release all the stress from work...

Depressed all the way...

I've been feeling very depressed lately and i just don't know why...Feels like something is missing in my life...or maybe i just hate the way I'm living my life...Sometimes i try to use the phrase "live life to the fullest" as a motivation but it will only last for like...a day?

Probably GOD is the answer...I have not gone to church in a very very long time...Yes, will go to church next Saturday...

There's still a chance

Went for a photoshoot today at Monsopiad Cultural Village. It's not that tiring though, just helping the kids in their traditional costume and tell them to smile and pose...and there's this cute boy, Somonih's son, he's so CUTE!! feel like pinching his chubby cheeks...

cute boy Owen

After the photoshoot, went back to the office to do some work, then went to Little Italy with Maps for a late lunch...

Wondering why i said there's still a chance? well, the volleyball team leader told me he's giving another try out, so yes! i still have a chance, if I'm good enough, i can join the team...hehehe...i just hope that I'm not busy at that time...

Next week there will be a try out for the netball team, but what i am really looking forward to is the futsal try outs...really can't wait!

Not feeling well

Last night, the big boss invite to Friends karaoke for a drinking session. So, went back home, bath and took a 30 minutes nap before going off to Friends.

Didn't get to sing much caused the place was full of everyone wanting to sing...few incidents happen, hehe, i was in a blur when they announce that it was tracey's birthday, what?!! it wasn't even her birthday! haha and so she was forced to drink the tower of beer, and also a girl sitting at our table (i don't know her name and i didn't bother to ask) fell to the floor exposing her panty (she was too drunk). Overall of that night drinking session : i didn't enjoy it at all!

Well, just a few shots of whiskey and i was drunk, that was when my gastric came, my tummy was in pain, it was because i drank with an empty stomach, did not eat before i went to Friends. Damn the pain was killing me... so told my friend i'm going to sneak out and go home. Didn't want to tell them, takut tidak kena kasi balik, haha.. another friend invite to R&B but i just couldn't stand my tummy pain. if i wasn't in pain, i would definitely still want to party!

Doreen sms me and i know she must be very mad because i didn't tell her that i was going home, i didn't even bother to reply her message. got a few calls as well but i seriously did not hear my phone ring. My sister was quite annoyed, she told me my phone didn't stop ringing and it bothered her.

Woke up in the morning, feeling like wanted to throw up, i think it was the effect of drinking on an empty stomach. went to the office late and a few colleagues took sick leave today. They must be drinking like hell last night.

luckily i can still do work in this not so well condition of mine, i even regret drinking last night, not a good feeling...and tonight still have to work, got a photoshoot to do at Kg. Nelayan, then there's bowling at 9pm..fuh...hope i still have the energy.

Updates on our sports training, the badminton and volleyball team has undergone their selection of players. i didn't had the chance to even go for the try outs because of the tons of work to be settled at the office especially now my boss is on raya leave.

The only happy thing today is eating japanese food during lunch at Hana restaurant in City Mall...yummy yummy..:)

The Office Victim Strikes!

Haha...Rinto kena balas oleh Maps...

Happenings...

It's been a week since i last updated this blog...

Friday:
My friend celebrated her birthday at Rawk, Donggongon and beg me to go even though i did not want to because i have to fetch my bf at the airport at 12 midnight. She insisted so i said yes but told her i'm only going to be there for a short while.

Went to Rawk at 10pm, drank a few glasses and dance a little and left after wishing her Happy Birthday...

Saturday & Sunday:
Spend time with my bf for two days...went to 1Borneo and he said it was boring (Yes, i know la he "loves" KL).

We cook at my place and watch movies he downloaded. Gosh..it's been a long time since the last time we did things together.

At night, went to meet his cousins and uncle. They said they are going to Upperstar to watch the football match but i didn't feel like joining them so i went home and he stayed with them.

Went home, took a bath and then watch a movie for a while...hmm...feel bored...then my friend sms me to go out to Friends...so, went out and enjoyed that nite...

Monday:
In the morning, was late going to Majlis Penyerahan Kuih Raya at the foundation building and I was so sleepy i wish i didn't have to attend the event but was already text by the boss to attend, like it or not i had to go...

After the event, came back to the office and was sick...my tummy hurts a lot, first day of period, can't stand the pain so i went back home and slept the whole afternoon.

Office Bullies!!

Poor Maps being bullied by two bad boys at the office :p

Still can do her peace pose, hehe

Hehehe :p

My adorable nieces and nephew

Not the one behind...that's the fat auntie, heheh, Daisy jgn marah :pThe chubbiest is my fav!!! (the one in the middle wearing a pink blouse) eee...geramnya, mau cubit pipi dia... kesian the abang kena tutup muka oleh the adik yang besar, hehehe

Bowling...

Went bowling with friends last nite...feels so good since i haven't played since 1998?

Was the only girl playing with the guys and I seriously am not good at all in playing this game but thanks to my friends who thought me a few techniques..

Bandzey focusing while Fred looks on

Rinto & Yahya

Feels good to get a few strikes, especially a double strike when you are not a professional in this game, hehe...


Actually the guys are training for the forthcoming friendly match with the Sarawak Tourism Board. Maybe if i train enough i can join the team, hehe... not to forget the coming Sports Day also has a bowling tournament :)



Yeah, i had a really good time with them...definitely going again for more games to come... :)

happy yet sad

On Monday, my friend (which i mention earlier in my previous entry) finally rang me up after 7 months of silence...anyway, i've gotten used to his style of keeping in touch with friends, but i'm happy that he called me :)..he asked what will i be doing that nite, sadly i have already other plans to celebrate a friends birthday and also Malaysia Day, so i invited him to join us (even though i know he won't come)...he said he will call me if he decided to turn up..

So me and my friends went quite early to Friends to at least sing a few songs before people come filling up the place. i was hoping that he will turn up but sadly did not...he text me to tell me that if i can go back early, we can meet up..sorry its not easy to just leave my friends there..so he said maybe next time..hmm, wondering when will that next time be?

At midnite, decided to wish a few friends Happy Malaysia Day and that was the nite i had a few burns on my arms and a scratch on my leg. Thanks Doreen for the cigarette burns :) and damn the guy whose glass fell to the floor and hurt me!!

well,i enjoyed that nite, only i made someone really mad at me...and now we are not in good terms...tomorrow will be the last day i can 'pujuk' him...

Last time, 2 years back, i used to blog more about my feelings (emotional you can say that)... but i've decided to blog more on my life...if i can remember some childhood memories with some pictures of me in my early years, i'll also probably put it in my blog.. i just wanted to have a smile, when one day, i read back all those phases of life that i have gone through, either good or bad..

Such a Fool!

Last friday, had a few invitation to hang out with colleagues and friends, ada yang bawa pigi main bowling, c francis bawa p DJunction and big boss PV bawa minum di Friends.... Sorry aneurin terpaksa reject your bowling invitation sebab tidak best bah kalau kita dua jak, hehehe ramai2 baru best..

anyway, after much thinking where should i hang out that friday nite, i decided to go to Friends because mau nyanyi konon, so told francis i cannot go to Djunction(another reason i didn't want to go to DJunction is because my brother is working that nite, so nanti kena tgk2 pula nnt). Sampai di Friends, kena punish pula sebab lambat datang, kena suruh one shot, one shot...at least i got to sing a few songs juga la, hahaha...After drinking and drinking some more... i was drunk and don't remember a few things i did that nite, only i feel foolish the next day... oh God! what have i done?! people will think i feel desperate and that makes me feel like a fool! I need to control myself... after my friend's birthday party next monday, i think i'll be resting for a while from drinking...

He's coming home...

After months and months just sms and talking on the phone, at last his coming home but only for Raya. I should be thankful that at least i get to see him. He will be in Sabah maybe for 3-4 weeks, but of course he's not always gonna be with me, he will want to spend time with his family as well, hope we can at least spend 1 week together... maybe i should take leave during that time.

Thinking of him coming home just makes me nervous and excited!...i haven't seen him for such a long time and how should i react when i meet him at the airport? hug him and kiss him?

I just can't wait!

31st August...lama suda tapi baru dapat ni pics...:p

Ada juga orang di belakang mau "be in the picture"...hahaha

Sports Day!!

Yeah! Sports day is finally materializing, will be held early November... this is another reason why i should start exercising and training myself..haha... at least i have already started before i heard this good news...

Another happy news is mum's coming to KK and will be staying with us for a few nights, a lot of things to talk about with her since i haven't 'balik kampung' for months now. Miss her so much... i haven't got the chance to see my new born nephew.. miss dad so much, hope he's doing well over there, they keep asking when am i going back to kampung, :( miss all my family, especially my cute and chubby niece (coz she reminds me of 'me')

I told you so...

Something has really been bothering me and I can't help but think about it...its just this guilty feeling you have inside and you kind of regret the things you have done in the past and wish you could just turn back time and make everything perfect like the way you plan and wanted it to be...whenever you think about it, there's this tiny voice saying "I told you so..."

Gym...

I've started going back to the gym again after long months collecting fat here and there, attending dinner after dinner after dinner... damn does it feel good to be sweating and feeling healthy!! especially the feeling of confidence...i just need to get my body back in shape... :)

Friends or just another phase...

Some people at some point will try to move another step forward in their lives intentionally or unintentionally leaving behind the people that they have consider once as a friend, as though these friends are just another phase in their lives.

I think myself as "another phase" to some of those people I consider my friends. At some point, they stop to call you or text you, though we understand maybe they're busy but what's with not replying your text at all, if you don't want to hang out together that's fine, at least tell me that you're ok and doing well with your life over there, hello?? Sometimes it does hurt when you think about it, weren't you good enough for them till they don't want to be in touch with you ever again??

At one time, it feels everyday you are messaging each other even though not seeing very often, and the next thing you know, after about 6 to 8 months, he suddenly calls you up in the middle of the night asking are you a sleep or not, and lying to him so he doesn't feel guilty of waking you up, you replied "no, I'm still awake!", a few minutes later feeling it was like eternity, he calls you to talk about how stress he is with his work and life, and there you are listening to him, as a good friend should, :) well those days are gone and I really miss hearing his voice, so sad when you think about it, its been more than a year since I met him and the last time I remember he sms me was on his birthday, now my sms are not replied at all, wanted to call but he's the kind that calls people and does not answer calls...he's a very very good friend and it's just sad some friendship won't last forever.

That was just an example of a friend, there are lots more, but it would take forever to tell it all, so to my friends out there, maybe I'm just a phase in your happy lives but you guys are still my friends until today, I will be happy to hear from you guys soon, if ever...I hope...

Think Positive vs. Negative

I'm just so sorry with how I've been leading my life...always keep asking the same old question over and over again, "am I in the right direction?" Not so sure right now hey..there are times when I would say to myself I wanna live life to the fullest and there are times when I feel like I don't wanna live anymore...sometimes it feels good to be around good friends sharing laughs together and sometimes you just want to be alone, feeling depressed in your own room.

I wish so hard that everyday I get to enjoy what I'm doing but not today, this morning I feel happy to be working with colleagues that are fun to be with, then I came home feeling sad for no reason, maybe it's just me thinking negative things, well I don't know, some people say follow what your heart says but sometimes it can maybe be wrong to think that way, shouldn't we be thinking rational than following what we feel? What if by following your heart leads you in making the wrong decisions? Then the guilts come and I'm sure I can't bear with the guilty feelings, telling me why did I not think rationally in the 1st place? When it does, you just feel sorry for yourself but nothing can be done about it

Though through it all, there's still hope out there somewhere someday and we will find it eventually...just trying to think positive in the end :) damn does that feel good?

Alcoholic or... trying to have fun??

Last nite i went out with a reporter friend (when i actually promise myself that i will stay home and rest)... went to D Junction, guess who did i saw there, my colleague Dann...i didn't went and greet him, only wave from a far, then i went to Rumba before heading back home i think almost 3 a.m. if im not mistaken, hehe.

so, im just saying that i should be getting back to my old life, going out to drink once in a while for fun and not every nite...i dont want to be an alcoholic...

Wednesday Nite

My colleagues haven't stop talking of the nite we had so much fun, i was satisfied coz i got to sing a lot of songs that nite (heheh..we came early). we were actually there to celebrate our colleague's birthday but the birthday girl came late, but at least she came. after hours of partying at a place called Friends in Donggongon, i had to send my friend home bcoz he was not fit to drive his car.


I really did enjoy myself that wednesday nite... :p

i seriously need to get some rest. Nearly every nite i'm out drinking with friends and going back late. i'll die if this continues...